I remember feeling amazed and nervously excited when I descended the stairs in our tiny 2-bedroom apartment to tell my husband of 8 years I was pregnant. He looked up at me, "Really?!" Nodding, I confirmed what we'd been planning for about a year. We were thrilled. I devoured all the books, the guided meditations … Continue reading Back Then
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Wish
I wish you could see… I wish you could see what he's like when no one is around, when no one is watching, warily sizing him up. The funny boy he is when he's not trying so hard To impress you Make you like him To appear smart I wish you could see into her … Continue reading Wish
Inevitable
I entered the school cafeteria with my brave I'm-not-really-a-volunteer-type-person-but-I-want-to-be face on. PTA? Ugh. Being one of "those" moms? Please. Not for me. Always put together with makeup and hair completely in place? Not hardly - even if I wanted to be! Exhibit A: I do not have the hair to pull off being one of … Continue reading Inevitable
Fragile
Be careful with my heart. I know how you look at me when I'm wth my children. I see you watching. I'm aware. I know what it looks like. I'm a fragile mom, yes, but a mom who is battle-tested and will no longer shy away from meeting your eyes. I will not be shamed. I … Continue reading Fragile
It’s Time
When I was pregnant with him, I was sicker than I've ever been in my life. I read all the books, studied up on exactly how he was developing and growing. We dreamed about what this little baby would be like when we were able to finally meet him, like all parents-to-be surely do. When … Continue reading It’s Time
