Apparently I am not getting the message.
I am of the opinion that we learn lessons in life. Situations will recur in life until the lesson is absorbed. Sometimes I think it’s my job to learn things the hard way. Or at least the delayed way.
I recently took my group exercise certification tests and passed. My first thought after I’d completed the exams: “Oh my gosh. I so should have done this sooner.” I had built up the test as something so scary and so huge that I just sort of became paralyzed. I wasn’t ready, I hadn’t studied enough, could I really do this? Put bluntly: fear of failure.
I literally wanted to shake myself, “WHY?!” I know this in my head. Not that failure never happens, but when I do my best, put myself out there, and take a risk – it rarely comes back without reward of some kind. So why do we still fear when we know the worst-case scenario isn’t all that Earth-shattering? I would like the lesson to be learned. Worst case scenarios and the possibility of failure are still present, sure. But isn’t that the definition of courage – to press on even in the presence of fear?
Tough Mudder is this weekend, and yeah, I’m skerred. But this is a legitimate fear. C’mon – they are going to electrocute me, dunk me in an ice bath, slog me through mud and barbed wire, make me jump over fire and throw me into mud ponds from 20 feet in the air. Perhaps I should be more frightened of my lack of sanity than of the race itself….seriously. I’m doing this for an orange headband.
Joking aside, I will finish. There will be amazing endorphin highs, camaraderie, and all kinds of goodies just waiting for me to experience. And I’ll have some great muddy, falling, scratched up, scared stories to share.
And I can’t wait. Nothing like a little fear to know you’re alive, right?!
(Thanks, for the reminder, Kai!)
4 thoughts on “Fear. Again.”
Wish I could go with you!! I would love to do one of these one day!! But I definitely need to get in serious shape first LOL!! You will do great and what an awesome experience!! I love your comment about courage. one of the things I said before my debut LOL at the Pensacola interstate fair singing contest was that I had read that courage is “having fear of doing something and doing it anyway.” so here goes nothing LOL!!! Go have a blast
It will be fun! We should totally do Warrior Dash next year! It’s a 5 k with obstacles! So fun!
I’m in for Warrior Dash, if someone teaches me to swim I may do the Mudder with you too. Lol. Contagious is what you are, you make me want to do things I’m so scared of…I don’t even care, I love it 🙂
😀 yay for laughing in the face of fear and doing the dang thing anyway!